Saturday, February 28, 2009

Post Ninety-Eight.

Karaoke is such a blast. I could care less that I pretty much suck. I won't lie, I'm a beast on those guy songs. Jessica and I did a kick ass duet of a few songs. Jenjen kept making fun of me wen we did duets. D: Haven't hung out with Nick in forever. That was nice. I think everyone had fun. The Omen ... lame movie. But, we still all jumped a couple feet in the air for a few parts.

Hmm. I'm not sure what to expect in the weeks to come.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Post Ninety-Seven.

I was told to be more assertive... more forceful. I'm not exactly sure if I can do that.I dunno. It's not really... me.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Post Ninety-Six.

Maybe I should just have you read all I've posted ever.
Sometimes I wonder if you've ever checked my blog, or remember I have one.

I didn't want others to get involved. I didn't want things to get messy. I'm sorry. Okay, I mean it. I really am sorry. You're probably really mad at me. Could you tell me that? I'd rather you tell me than bottle it all up. You can yell at me if you want.

Relationships are give and take. I'm ready to talk things out. Just you and me; no one else. I'll have them stay out of things if you just listen to what I have to say. I'll listen to your side, too.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Post Ninety-Five.

Nerji's sister is way more cool than he is.
The end.

Post Ninety-Four.

So, GeekCore is in progress. gXc! Here's some roughies of what we have right now...

Ughh, pictures so big, but I can't be arsed to resize right now. I'm feeling icky again. I was super great today until art and Ethan brought some things up. Does that make me weak?

Post Ninety-Three.

I hate how people can't spell. Now, I don't mean an every once in a while mistake. I'm talking about those people with atrocious spelling. I know some can't help it... they're just bad at everything. But, by George, use a fuggin' dictionary next time son!


Post Ninety-Two.

Gawd, I've been sounding so freaking depressing lately. It makes me even more depressed, honestly! But, I don't know... I can't help myself. I'm having ups and downs. I do fine until I'm overwhelmed with things that well... remind me.

This cheered me up...
I don't know how that will end up looking. But, eh... it's supposed to be a cute bunny. And it's all like "Rawr." :/ Rawr... we used to always say that.

Screw it. Forget what I said. I'm calling you tomorrow. Well, I guess... technically today. You probably won't answer... but, eh. It's worth a shot, right?

I'm not giving up just yet.

I can't help but close my eyes for life
And dream a different ending
When I wake I won't be so exhausted
And I'll stop with my pretending
That I'm fine; I'm fine if I can fool myself tonight
And my lie will drown out all of yours

Monday, February 23, 2009

Post Ninety-One.

So, Petey sorta fixed my belt buckle for me. Y'know... my NES controller one. Well, it came back to me as a necklace instead. At first I was kinda pissed. 'Cos well, I told him I knew how to fix it, and I could do it myself. But he offered... so, yeah. I let him have it for the weekend. He told me it was impossible to fix it as a buckle, and just made it into a necklace. I can't complain too much. He tried, and people really like it. I need to find a longer chain eventually. 'Cos, honestly... it's a bit goofy how it rests just on my boobs. I still like it.

JenJen let me borrow her copies of Backdrop's CD and Icon For Hire's EP. Yummy. I've been listening to Backdrop as of now because I just got it ripped onto my compy. Their bassist is uber cute. (: We'll, they're all cute. But, I've got to admit, bassists are always better. Maybe it's just because I have a soft spot for bassists 'cos I am one. Then again, I have a soft spot for drummers too. Hmmm... who knows.

I got this thing from NCLS in the mail. Um... National Student Leadership Conference. I guess my counselor suggested me or something. It's a summer college program thing. Though, the tuition is kinda pricey. I don't know if my dad would let me do it. The ones I want to do aren't in Chicago anywho... they're in New York. So, doubts my dad will let me do it. Though, it would be a great thing to do for college. I mean... if you complete your stay, you get a Certificate of Achievement, a transcript for what you've done... so like, college credit in whatever program you signed up for. Depending on which one you do, you get 1 to 3 college credits. Which, honestly... that'd be super sweet. Also, you get a letter of recommendation that you can submit to colleges when you're filling all the applications out. Honestly, I think that's hella rad. I'll have to talk to him about it. Maybe he'll look past the price. <.<; Al least I don't want to do the business abroad! That's about $5500. I wonder if he'd let me go to New York... then I could do the Entrepreneurship and Business. Then again, that's still pricy. :/ $2400... ouch. I could do the Inside the Arts or Mastering Leadership at Chicago! $1600 for either. Hmm. I don't know. I'll talk to him about it. Still so pricey. ><;

Enjoy Backdrop. (:

Post Ninety.

I think I'm doing a bit better.

There's still some songs I can't bring myself to listen to like I used to.
And if I do, it usually isn't pretty.
It's not too bad anymore.
I just get upset.

I don't know.
Talk to me again. :/
A simple hi would suffice.
Nothing special.
I don't know.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Post Eighty-Nine.


Ok, so at M@TM, Icon for Hire played. They were abso' amazing. I'm not even kidding. Even though I didn't know hardly any of the words, I sang all that I remembered. They put on an amazing show. Not even kidding. The bassist Josh took JenJen's camera and took pictures while they were on stage. It was sweet. It was just... ahhh, the crowd was so involved in their show. I loved it.
Though, the other two bands before hand were hella rad too--Kidnap the Sun and Backdrop.

The second band to play (KTS) reminded me of New Found Glory in a way.
Um... IFH signed my Jackass Converse. Even though they smelled bad... my shoes, I mean. 'Cos well, they're like... ancient. I want to say that they're about three or four years old. Honestly, they don't smell too bad. Adam, the drummer (Happy Birthday!), gave them a big whiff before signing them. Epic.

Oh! I had a midnight curfew for like... the first time in ages. Usually my dad will tell me if I go to M@TM that I need to be back when it's over/by 11. But, no... he told me I had to be back by midnight. I was pretty shocked. Though, I was in by 11:30. 'Cos, y'know... I'm a good kid and all. Well, more so that Stephanie needed to get home. We sat and talked a bit. It was cool.

I got a banana from Sonic. Yummy.

I swear Josh almost gave Jess or JenJen his phone number 'cos he wanted us to go to their St. Louis show. o.0 Yeah, ikr. But, a bunch of people were talking and he had his phone out, but no one was paying attention to him. Well, besides me 'cos he was talking first. Anywho, yeah... fun. Jess got Josh to give Stephanie a hug. I bet she was super excited. Smile, smile.

... maybe someday.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Post Eighty-Eight.

I needed a night like last night.
Even though there were some downs, the ups were way more worth it.
We watched the new Friday the 13th.
The opening was like 30 minutes long.
We all had a good talk and bitch fest.
I ended up crying down by the river.
But, I had friends with me.
It was fine.
We watched scary moviesss.
It was fun.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Post Eighty-Seven.

Pete is my backup prom date.
He knows it.
He's cool with it.
That means I'll be ok if the whole Andrew thing falls through.

Post Eighty-Six.

Supposedly you have no life if you have seen over 85 of these. (:

Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list and paste this as a note. Then, put X's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

(X) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(X) Grease
(X) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(X) Boondock Saints
(X) Fight Club
(X) Starsky and Hutch
(X) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 8

(X) The Princess Bride
(X) Anchorman
(X) Napoleon Dynamite
(X) Labyrinth
(X) Saw
(X) Saw II
(X) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(X) Anger Management
(X) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(X) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 19

(x) Scream
(X)Scream 2
(X) Scream 3
(X) Scary Movie
(X) Scary Movie 2
(X) Scary Movie 3
(X) Scary Movie 4
(X) American Pie
(X) American Pie 2
(X) American Wedding
(X) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 30

(X) Harry Potter 1
(X) Harry Potter 2
(X) Harry Potter 3
(X) Harry Potter 4
(X) Resident Evil 1
(X) Resident Evil 2
(X) The Wedding Singer
(X) Little Black Book
(X) The Village
(X) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 40

(X) Finding Nemo
(X) Finding Neverland
(X) Signs
(X) The Grinch
(X) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(X) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(X) Butterfly Effect
(X) 13 Going on 30
(X) I, Robot
(X) Robots
Total so far: 51

(X) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(X) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(X) Along Came Polly
(X) Deep Impact
(X) KingPin
(X) Never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
(X) Meet the Fockers
(X) Eight Crazy Nights
(X) Joe Dirt
Total so far: 62

(X) A Cinderella Story
(X) The Terminal
(X) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
(X) Dumber & Dumberer
(X) Final Destination
(X) Final Destination 2
(X) Final Destination 3
(X) Halloween
(X) The Ring
(X) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(X) Flubber
Total so far: 73

(X) Harold and Kumar go to white castle
( ) Practical Magic
(X) Chicago
(X) Ghost Ship
(X)From Hell
(X) Hellboy
(X) Secret Window
(X) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole ten yards
Total so far: 80

(X) The Day After Tomorrow
(X) Child's Play
(X) Seed of Chucky
(X) Bride of Chucky
(X)Ten Things I Hate About You
(X) Just Married
(X) Gothika
(X) Nightmare on Elm street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(X) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(X) The Grudge
(X) The Grudge 2
(X) The Mask
(X) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 93

(X) Bad Boys
(X) Bad Boys 2
(X) Joy Ride
(X) Lucky Number Slevin
(X) Ocean's Eleven
(X) Ocean's Twelve
(X) Bourne Identity
(X) Bourne Supremecy
( )Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
(X) Predator I
(X) Predator II
(X) The Fog
(X) Ice Age
(X) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 106

(X) Independence Day
(X) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(X) Darkness Falls
(X) Christine
(X) ET
(X) Children of the Corn
(x) My Boss's Daughter
(X) Maid in Manhattan
(X) War of the Worlds
(X) Rush Hour
(X) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 117

( ) Best Bet
(X) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
(X) Calendar Girls
(X) Sideways
(X) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(X) Ever After
(X) Wizard of Oz
(X) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(X) The Terminator
(X) The Terminator 2
(X) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 127

(X) X-Men
(X) X-2
(X) X-3
(X) Spider-Man
(X) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
(X) Jeepers Creepers
(X) Jeepers Creepers 2
(X) Catch Me If You Can
(X) The Little Mermaid
(X) Freaky Friday
(X) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(X) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
(X) The Hot Chick
(X) Shrek
(X) Shrek 2
Total so far: 142

(X) Swimfan
(X) Miracle on 34th street
(X) Old School
(X) The Notebook
(X) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(X) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
(X) Boogeyman
(X) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total so far: 150

(X) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(X) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(X) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(X) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(X) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(X) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far:156

( ) Basketball
(X) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
(X) House of 1000 Corpses
(X) Devils Rejects
(X) Elf
(X) Highlander
(X) Mothman Prophecies
(X) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 163

(X) The Jacket
(X) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(X) Monsters Inc.
(X) Titanic
(X) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(X) Shaun Of the Dead
(X) Willard
Total so far: 170

( ) High Tension
(X) Club Dread
(X) Hulk
(X) Dawn Of the Dead
(X) Hook
(X) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(X) 28 Days Later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
( ) Waterworld
Total so far: 176

(X) Kill Bill vol 1
(X) Kill Bill vol 2
(X) Mortal Kombat
(X) Wolf Creek
(X) Kingdom of Heaven
(X) The Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
(X) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 183

(X) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(X) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(X) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(X) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(X) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(X) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
(X) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 190

(X) The Matrix
(X) The Matrix Reloaded
(X) The Matrix Revolutions
(X) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
(X) Team America: World Police
(X) Red Dragon
(X) Silence of the Lambs
(X) Hannibal
Total: 199/239

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Post Eighty-Five.

My room is always freezing lately. I don't know what's up with that. Even with my little heater on, it doesn't really help.

So, this has to be one of my favourite Bring Me The Horizon songs...

Post Eighty-Four.

Sometimes I can't stand myself...
Because I'm such a procrastinator.

I can't do it Jessica, sorry. I'll wait it out. I'm not giving up. So, I'll either... regret doing so later on, or be glad I did. Whatever happens, happens.

I need to get a job. My new bass/amp won't pay for themselves. Plus, my dad keeps getting on me about it. He's like, "Blahblah you need a job blah."


Blockbuster maybe?
I dunno... finding places within walking distance limits me a bit.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Post Eighty-Three.

I've been trying to distract myself for the past couple of days.
My new project is learning First Date - Blink 182.
I'm excited.

Post Eighty-Two.

I'll give him some space.
A week or so.
Maybe things will go back to normal.
Maybe they won't; I can only hope for the best.

I've been joking lately with my friends about new future prospects.
But, that's not what I really want.

Today is Wednesday. (:
I'm so excited.
Only because... Saturday isn't far off.
And! I've actually got money to get into M@TM.
AND! Icon For Hire will be playing.
It'll be their second show; I didn't see the first.
But, I've listened to their CD that Jessica has.
And, well... I love them.
Usually, I don't like girl singers.
But, jeeze... she's good.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Post Eighty-One.

We had a pep assembly today.
Pete played with my jiggle.
Y'know, like... arm jiggle.
The mic was up way hella loud.
It freaked me out.
I jumped.
And cursed.
I was scared.

Post Eighty.

I'm not quite sure what to do.
All my memories are fading.
Close my eyes; you don't look quite the same.
Listen to your voice mail just to hear your voice.
I don't know what's happening.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Post Seventy-Nine.

I think I'm losing my mind.
I can't be cooped up in this house.
I need to get out.

I broke down watching Juno last night.
Throughout the movie I ended up crying like... three times.

Things aren't sitting right with me.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Post Seventy-Eight.

For some reason, I think I did something really wrong.

Post Seventy-Seven.

Happy V-day everyone.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Post Seventy-Six.

Posting my Ryuk sketch so anyone who doesn't have me on facebook can see... aka: Nerji. Nub. Do note that it isn't complete... and probably won't be completed. His face is so hard to draw. D:

And here's um... I'm not sure, but I liked it.

Post Seventy-Five.

I hope you know your words hurt... probably more than they should.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Post Seventy-Four.

I keep getting things in the mail for colleges.
It's cool I'm getting mail for once.
But... it's all colleges. ; ;
Someone send me mail!

Post Seventy-Three.

I found this epic. :x

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Post Seventy-Two.

Everyone keeps asking me if this is about Andrew...
But, it's not. o.0
I was just listening to ATL/PWT and it kinda just stuck in my head. Hmm, anywho, here it goes.
I know, I know, needs work.
And way so angsty sappy bleh.
Part of it's actually lines from Fatal Attraction. xD

I should’ve known better than this
A sweet kiss isn’t eternal bliss
Time is fleeting
I’m still here dreaming, believing

You knew, you knew it from the start
You and I wouldn’t make it quite this far
You knew, you knew it from the start
You and I were supposed to be apart

Why can’t we close our eyes,
And count up to ten?
Let the rain fall in our faces,
And pretend this never happened?
Can’t believe the effect you have on me

Close my eyes and all I see is you
Breathe in and all I smell is you
Listen close and all I hear is you
Reach out; I swear I can feel you
Mind racing, thoughts of only you
It’s always been just you…
But you…

You knew, you knew it from the start
You and I wouldn’t make it quite this far
You knew, you knew it from the start
You and I were supposed to be apart
You knew, you knew it from the start
You were gonna break my heart

Post Seventy-One.

So, last night my dad kinda flipped on me when we were at Cassie's mom's house.
Because Chris was talking about wanting to play beer pong with his dad when he graduates, right?
Well, Cassie and my dad didn't know what that was.
I did, so I explained.
So he's kinda like, "OMG HOW DO YOU KNOW?!?!?!" Minus the yelling.
So he probably thinks I'm a bad kid.
But, hey...
Andrew's the one who told me what beer pong was.

Post Seventy.

Sometimes, guys make me want to go lesbian.
But then again, vaginas are scary.

I'll become a hermit.
Since, y'know... not being religious wouldn't really work out being a nun.

Post Sixty-Nine.

Prom's on April 18th.
We're already making plans.
There will be a blog...

Our Prom Blog.

That should work.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Post Sixty-Eight.


That is all.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Post Sixty-Seven.

You suck.

Ok, anyway.
Half day of school today.
Jen, Steph, and I went and ate out at pizza hut.
We danced in the booth to music on the jukebox.
It was awesome like.
Jen almost killed us taking Steph home.
Oh, well.
We washed her car.
She sprayed me with the hose.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Post Sixty-Six.

1) Do you like anyone?​​​

2) Are you a flirt?
Just a bit, I guess.

3) Are you a player?​​​
No way.

4) Would​ you get back together with any of your exes?​​
I have no clue.

5) Have you ever kissed anyone on your top friends?​
I want to say... yes? I don't remember who my top friends are tbh.

6) Do you want a valentine?​​​

7) Are you SINGLE?​​​
No ma'am.

8) Do you prefer group dates or single ones?​​​
I haven't been on enough dates to care.

9) Would you kiss light or make out sessions?​​​
Eh, whichever?

10) Do you like cuddling up while​ watching a movie​?​​​

11) Any plans for valentines day?
I have no clue.

12) What' s the best valentines day present for a girl?​​
You tell me.

13) For a guy?
No clue.

14) What is special about the day?
Make people feel lonely and to make money off of card! D<

Post Sixty-Five.

You probably won't even read this, but whatever. I need to blow off some steam, and you're kinda ignoring me. Maybe not on purpose, but hey, things happen.

Communication is key, right?

Then tell me how you're feeling. Tell me what's wrong. You'd rather not talk about it. I'd rather not be worried it's something serious. I'd rather not be worried that it's most likely about me. You could tell me if it was. Maybe it won't bother me, or maybe I'll be hurt a bit... but I'd rather know what's going on, rather know the truth, than to believe it's something much worse.

Maybe it's a guy thing. Who knows.

I usually tell you what's up with me. Though, I always have this feeling you're not very concerned. Maybe I'll just stay silent about that stuff.

Worry. Worry. Worry.
That's all I've been doing.

When I tell you sometimes I worry about you, I lie.
I'm always worrying about you, and I always have.
You were my best friend before you became more.

Whatever you do, please don't lie to me.